There comes a time when you wonder why your hear wont allow things to fall away. On one wish I have someone literally staring me in the face, happy. Why can’t I return the favor and be happy as well. I don’t understand, I don’t think I ever will. Some days I wish to have a bit more freedom, but what from. Thats quite unknown.
Now on my other hand I you, literally 1000 miles away. The intimacy is outrageous between us, even now that we rarely talk. I wish i could understand you better. I’m so in love with what little I know of you, I’m willing to walk away from everything I know to be yours if you would do the same. Even now I feel the urge to beg in a post I doubt you will even read. This is simply unacceptable, and should be my first priority to change immediately. Above all else this is what I need.
and in the end I see him. He isn’t much at first glance but I sense a deeper strength than he shows. I don’t want another man unable to give me anything other than a false hand of comfort. What I crave above all else is intimacy, mentally. Physically I don’t understand it, all I need is that push. I do appreciate how much he is teaching me about the world around me. I don’t know how to say many things but this is where I stand.
Somewhere I need to walk and finish finding who I am among all this mess of confusion mixed with passions.
So soul mate… would you either come home, or invite me in?
